Kailin Santos. A student part-time daydreamer. 1st year in SPCP. 13 going on 14. 121392. Blue. Pink. Grey. Yellow. White. Tropical fruits. Shakes. Enjoys: Making layouts. Daydreaming. Always using my imagination. Blog hopping. Texting. Chatting. Shopping. Playing sports. Surfing. Hockey. FigureSkating. and people who always drop by my blog and always tag. *laughs.
It's been more than a year, obviously, since I last blogged here. I had a hard time retrieving my password and the email address that I used for this account. It sucks. Kailinweh.blogspot.com. You can't blame me. I was a stupid little girl back then--Maybe I still am.
Well, recently I just had this extreme break-up and is currently trapped. I'm trapped in the past. I don't know what the hell to do because everything leads to him. I always follow my heart over mind my mind. I don't care if I'm hurt as long as I love him. I still talk to him even though I know that at some point, it will all lead to tears. I don't know why I still love him even though I know he doesn't anymore. I mean, he's such a package. Good looking, smart, kind, all of the above.
I regret not telling him that he is smart. I used to tell him "Ang bobo mo naman" and other shit but the truth is, he's smart. I just don't wanna feel him being superior over me. He's right. I'm selfish. Always about me. I still am selfish because I'm forcing him to be with me even though everybody knows he doesn't want to anymore.
One thing I do not regret is saying that I would love him forever. Cliche, isn't it? But it's true. I swear to God and all the human beings here that I will NEVER EVER stop loving this boy. I love him to death. He's perfect. He's the one for me. No man can turn this opinion upside down. And I mean no one. Maybe God can, but human beings? No.
I remember the song that our History teacher had told us. It said that "You'll never appreciate something unless it's gone." That is so true. I mean I appreciate him right before he was gone but now, I really do appreciate him. A LOT. He's the one whom accepts me even though I have numerous weird symptoms. He's the one who listens to me with all my heart if the world just turned my back on me. Unlike any other people, I do not have a bestfriend. I do not have a friend who can always be just a text message away. No friend would reply to me within 5 minutes. Well, maybe there will be but that's just luck. With him, I have a bestfriend, brother, and lover. Nothing will beat our love. Our love was inseparable.
I don't regret ever loving him and being with him for more than 1 year. No, it wasn't a waste of time. I got to appreciate one of God's best creations. Soon enough, that little boy would be someone else's. Not mine. I guess I just have to accept the fact that most of the people leave. Appreciate the people who stay.
He hasn't left me yet. He's still in my heart--And he will never leave. He still talks to me but cuts our conversation short. My friend had told me that blogging would help to spit out all the emotions. It's true. I tried typing my words through the lame Text Document and maybe now is the time to show off all my emotions --if there is still someone who thinks this blog is active, AGAIN.
I will love him forever, I promise. I'll fight this battle no matter what happens.
Oh and btw, happy mother's day to all of the mothers out there. Thank you for everything, mama. I love you. :) I'm alone at the house because I've decided to give my mom and dad a date. And now I'm hungry. I forgot to tell them to bring me food. :( Ohwell.
Thank you Ate Kaye for talking to me :) Napapa bilis yung oras dahil sayo.
I'm in
All I do is to eat eat eat eat. (: I even out ice cream even though its soooo cold. =i tapos mamaya naka babad na ako sa heater :)) LOL.
anyway i need to go. i want toooo sleep.
Uhhh. Gahd sayang ung mga layouts na pinag gagawa ko. Ohwell. Ang daming nangyari since my last post like 10 years ago. Malapit na ung intrams. Ave and Essa are now varsities in softball. (: yeaahhmehn. (: uhm. Lets see.
Science: We had this game na pinaka mabilis na magsolve ng mixed solving of scientific notation. Eh gusto ko talagang mauna sa lahat. So I made. Yeahmehn. Thalia and Anina were the first people to answer on the board. Tas ung last question ako na ung pinaka una. Yeahmehn. Sorry na. Kasi ung isang day I was shouting na di ko magets. And there youuu go. Nagets ko na siya. May ibang way nga lang ako ng pag solve sa scientific notation. No one really understands it. But it never failed. (: Yeahmehn.
Outreach/Saturday: Outreach, we passed by Greenwoods. Parang sila, "Kailin uuwi ka na!!" Hahaha. Tapos nung umabot na kami dun. WHOA. Di ko alam kung matatakot ako or maaawa. :| Gahd. Tapos the "kanto boys" were all over Maxine. Hahaha. After that we went to Mikee's house and I had a blast! (: Thanks Mikee. And sorry (:
Ahhhm. English campaign na bukas. Dont forget. Magdala ng bulak para sa mga dugo na tutulo galing sa mga nose natin bukas. Hahahaha (:
Sooo our classroom is cramming. Songfest right after the exams?? Gah. So hard. We didnt really had time to think about the formation and costume. So we were all shouting at each other awhile ago, and I went home early. Because nothing really happened and I really need to go :| We came up with the final costume and formation. Wency and Maxine made the steps already. Well, tomorrow will be super stressful. I BET. We still have to hear mass and there's this talk with some guy. Sooo that means it will be super boring tomorrow. Yeah. :| I dont feel like going to school. Gah.
And so ahm. Our costume is pretty simple. And. Our song is great. =D Halabit. Its cute. Ohyah. Its Kot's birthday today. Happy birthday and thanks for the libre. Waha :) Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson.. So cute. Hahaha. Uhhm then we went to Mikee's house again 'cause I really need to get out of the house. ITS SO BORING. And our periodic exams was shown to us awhile ago. (Filipino, CL, and Math) I was happy in my score in Filipino, a little bit. Everyone's score is sooo low. :| Lalo na sa math. I HATE IT. BAKIT ANG BABA KO SA MATH? Im just.. Dont wanna tell. :| Its soo low even though people tell me that's its high. But it's not. :| GAWD :| I hate myself. WTF.
Yeah. And I've been busy with something. I still need to find something very important in the house. Lagot :| GAWD burara. :| NIWEI need to go. I've uploaded pictures in my multiply, btw. Come check it out, and comment ;) CLICK HERE (;
So I made this one about 1 month ago. It's sooo emo-ish. Waha.
Training for softball. And ahm. TRYOUTS. Yeah. Tryouts. SHIT. I'm so confident.. that I wont make it. :D Waha. At least. Dba? Ayon. Then. Firstfriday mass namen. Tas ahm. We talked about boys and tomboys after the mass with our beloved Sister Agana. Gawd. "There are many boys out there!"Waha. Kakatuwa :)) Wala na din naman ako masabi eh. Nothing really happened. REALLY. Amp. Here's some of the pictures nung nag ttry outs ung iba namin kagift (: sorry its soo sabog.
Happy birthday to my cousin, Karla.
Feel the BURN!! Hahaha. Yessss. I can feel the burnn. Yea. We did throwing, catching.. and running. I hate running. Kulelat ako sa running. Ang BAGAL ko. Grabe. Tapos everyone should tryout for varsity. I want to be one. Sinong may ayaw?? Gaah. Kaso di ako magaling. I better practice tomorrow. I SHOULD. Ainco kakainis.
Anywayy. We also had our Personality development. Ayon. Di naman sa kakahiya eh. Actually it was funny. Bwaha. Kasi ewan, it's funny :)) Yada. We need to sit like, old women. Jooke.
I neeeed to go. Bye (:
Uhh. Leadership Training namin. Tapos. Yun. Ang booooring. Pero mejo masaya kasi we won. Hahaha. Yung Most Meaningful Banner Chaka 3rd place kami sa talent thing. If you compare the banners of the freshmen to the banners of the juniors, mukhang basura ung banners namin. Hahaha. Di ko nga aakalaing mananalo kami eh. Oh ayon. Bragging daw sabi ni Anonymous :)) Sorry pero blog ko toh and I can put anything I want. And besides, di mo naman alam ung story eh..
Tapos. Yun. Buti nga di nagsalita ung mga freshmen na EFC chairman eh. Kundi manginginig talaga ako. Hahaha. Taposssss. School?? Juskoo. Ayoko na. SOBRA. Mas gusto ko ung grade 7. Sobrrraa. Ewan. Mas gusto ko ung mga teachers namen non. Lalo na ung adviser. Walang tatalo kay Ms. Cristobal (:
Ayon. Tapos. Blog hop na ako uliiit. Byeee! (: